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Monday, November 12, 2012

Woke up this morning...

Did you ever notice how many blues songs start with. "Woke up this morning..." and then the myriad reasons for singing the blues. I really don't know how to continue from there. I woke up this morning to go pray and the sting of of defeat I've been feeling for the last week was pounding me like a sledgehammer. I've been given precious little to help me understand it. And that will probably continue to be the case. I've been given much to alleviate it. And thank you for that. Yes, I am moving on. I am still shocked beyond belief. I still believe God is in control. I still believe ALL politicians leave a lot to be desired. I still believe we can disagree without being disagreeable. I am trying not to let myself get all riled up or completely worn down... And it could be going better. I am somewhere between wanting to fire off a parting shot, then just shutting up forever and firing off an opening salvo. I am really trying to just let it go. But my heart is truly broken. For now I am going to just shut up and refer back to Friday...

and

Four More Years

In 2008, when it became evident the President Obama had been elected I started praying for him with my son. And now that he has been re-elected I will continue to do so. I will pray for all of our elected officials. And  in four years I will vote for whoever has the platform closest to my values. And will continue to draw my values from my understanding of the Bible. In the meantime, I will prayerfully try to do this.

Micah 6:8 NIV

He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 
 
 
Hmmm. Can you be self referential to your own blog and still be walking humbly with your God? I sure hope so because the thought actually made me chuckle to myself. Making ones self chuckle can that be done humbly? Oh no I've caught myself in a closed loop... Well at least I can be silly again. That's a start. 

I have long contended that we all might be able to escape the blues if we just slept till noon...

Shooooot! I promised you I was going to shut up. Well so much for that. But we are closer now. If you are a praying person pray for me. Because I don't think I am going to get a satisfactory answer to the questions burning through my soul at the moment. And that's ok. I know that it really doesn't matter what I understand or not.

And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 
 
(Cue generic blues riff)

I woke up this morning, to dead babies screaming in my head.

And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 
 
I woke up this morning, to dead babies screaming in my head.

And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 
 
 They said "Nobody cares about us because another seal is dead."

And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 

And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 

Sorry I am just trying to remind myself. I know I should have just shut up. 

http://www.causes.com/causes/795803-save-the-unborn-babies/welcome
 
Or much more importantly:
http://www.care2.com/click-to-donate/seals/
 
(blues riff still playing)

I woke up this morning headed to prayer with a broken heart. 
Said I woke up this morning. Headed to prayer with a broken heart...
Lawd, I'm tryin' and now I'm crying 
Cause I woke up with a broken heart.
 
Please don't treat me, mama please don't treat me like an unborn child
I beggin, please don't treat me please don't treat me like an unborn child
I ain't even seen the light of day and I'm far too young
Far to young too die 


I woke up this morning headed to prayer with a broken heart. 
Said I woke up this morning. Headed to prayer with a broken heart...
Lawd, I'm tryin' and now I'm crying 
Cause I woke up with a broken heart
 

Oops, I got started again. I am trying. I really am trying. I am not really sure what I'm trying but I am trying... I am trying to act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with my God. My heart is still broken. I think I am going to set my alarm for noon and go back to bed.


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